I Think Its Time To Look At Me

I think its about time for me to realize that the only way to earn any money online is to be a thief, a crook, a lier, a con artist, a scammer.

The simple fact is I work hard every day, all day, 7 days a week, with nothing to show for it except a loss of time and money. For the past 10 years all I ever wanted to do is earn some honest money using the computer.

I have 6 computers. 3 laptops, 3 desktops, as I upgraded I just kept my old computers. They all have different information on them about making money online.

All with different software that I bought and some free programs. I still go back to some of the older files to see if I have something in there that I may have missed. Its easy enough because I run a network and share all my files with each pc.

Never have I tried to scam anyone or try to get something for nothing. I always tried to be as honest as I could be. I just felt that because I work hard and don't take the easy way that I would eventually find the answer to making money on the Internet.

I'm finding the wrong answer. I never thought that the answer would be what I suspected for years. But I don't know if I can continue my quest any longer, to do a simple thing. The simple thing to be honest and STILL make money online.

I ask myself every day, what the hell am I missing. What am I doing wrong. I just don't understand why. I try and try, day after day, week after week, year after year, and still no good results. I still just don't get it.

Being a VIRGO I am exactly what the sign says. Except for one thing. The definition says that virgo tries to be PERFECT. That to me, in my case, is not true. I just try to make things right the first time. Whenever I do anything, no matter what it is, I want to do it right the first time. I just hate to do anything over again.

Anything I do, no matter what it is, I am never afraid to sign my name to it. I will never hide from anything. If I do something and its not right, nobody can be harder on me than me.

And for all these years, following that crazy dream of earning money online, nobody can be any harder on me than myself.

With all the time and money that it has cost me and my wife, for my crazy idea that I can make money online, it just makes me sick.

I woke up this morning no closer to making any money. Still with no job. Still not knowing if things are going to get any better financially. I'm getting to the point of not knowing what else to do.

I run ads daily, signed up for so many affiliate programs, and just don't know what else to do.

Ive run my own website for years trying to find the right answer. I never thought that it would be something that would happen overnight. And that's the only thing that I was right about. It sure didn't happen overnight. It just didn't happen.

I signed up for some programs years ago, when they were in pre launch. Now people make money with them, and I somehow was left in the dust.

Ive read so many articles and downloaded so many ebooks, and paid for god only knows
how many ebooks. I find different programs that promise to show you exactly how, but
never really do.

The whole thing comes down to TRAFFIC. Not hits. Real traffic. I paid for so much traffic and never , ever got anything from that. I put ads on forums, and free classified sites. I have done everything I was told and still nothing.

Maybe its just me. Maybe the answer is me. Maybe the answer is as simple as looking
at myself. Maybe the answer is not everyone else.

Maybe I have been running the biggest scam on myself, and not knowing it. Can that be it? Wouldn't that be something. Running a scam on myself. Thinking if I spend the money and time, I would end up making money. Isn't that what a scam is? Offering something but never giving anything?

So maybe the answer is me.